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11/11/09

what do you go home to?

the past seven or eight days have all seemingly blended into one in my memory. into a massive blur of people and noise and mindless small talk. by Monday I felt like I could be snapped in half. so yesterday I shut myself in my room and retreated to the quiet comfort of my own mind. the peace of my music and my colors and nothing else.

I finished the pocket moleskine that I started in mid-September. in due time. this thing is about to fall to pieces.

11/10/09

finally, a quiet place

11/4/09

holding on to whatever warmth
whatever.

10/8/09

gravity rides everything

early, early in the morning
it pulls all down on my sore feet
I wanna go back to sleep
in the motions and the things that you say
it all will fall
fall right into place
as fruit drops, flesh it sags
everything will fall right into place
when we die, some sink and some lay
but at least I don't see you float away
and all of the spilt milk, sex and weight
it all will fall
fall right into place

9/11/09

hug a half empty glass




(water damage)

9/1/09

cold hands




wish I hadn't lost the knack for translating raw emotion into text.
what I wouldn't give for an additional outlet.

8/22/09

my lonely season



coming to a close.

7/27/09

your absence, your faceless distraction


7/14/09



I've been bad

I've lied, cheated, stolen,

been ungrateful for what I had

and I'm afraid habits rule my waking life

I'm scared

and I'm running in my sleep

for you

but all of the oceans and rivers and showers

will wash it all away

and make me clean

for you.

7/11/09

To dream that you are sailing the high seas in a ship, denotes that you are standing tall in times of emotional turmoil.

7/7/09

stormy inside



Tornado is a violent storm in nature, and it may represent violent emotional storms in your dreams. If you have reoccurring tornado dreams consider the emotional changes in your life and also the amount of anger and rage that you may be currently experiencing. Tornadoes could also represent disruptions and upsets in your immediate environment and specific or current issues that may be overwhelming.

6/25/09

minds rolled over


anywhere but home, please.

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